I have recently been feeling this inertia- this feeling of being too comfortable. The thing is I think I am in this comfort zone which I find difficult to get out of. So, I procrastinate, am terrified of starting something new and am generally talking about all the various ideas I have but not really doing anything about them. The thought of going back out into the real world is making me scared. As my father very rightfully pointed out, I am not living in the real world; I am living in a world where I am dreaming and refusing to wake up from this dream. For all my talk of not waiting for life to fall in my lap, that is exactly what I am doing- waiting for things to happen without taking an active role in making them happen. Getting frustrated but doing nothing to deal with the frustration. Getting idea after idea but not willing to translate them into action. And oh yes, I have a million excuses ready.
As my uncle pointed out, I am also becoming commitment-phobic. I am so scared to commit myself to something and then realising that it was a mistake that I refuse to commit. What I have failed to consider is that exit is always an option. Of course, my one problem is that once I commit, I like to stick it out to the end even if I don’t like it. But, maybe it is time to just jump into it and figure things out as I go along.
So, today I got this fantastic opportunity which involves relocating to Delhi for 3 months, social media marketing, legal liaison and overseeing audit (not the accounts type) as part of the team for an upcoming event involving travel, writing, documentaries etc. and a potential opportunity to rub shoulders with the who’s who of the travel world and oh, get paid for all this. The more I write about it here, the more stupid it sounds to me to not say yes.
Maybe it is time to get out of this comfort zone, get going and do something interesting. It is time to stop dreaming.