For the past few weeks, I have been facing this dilemma. I have to make a choice between 2 different very paths which I could walk down and which would have a very significant impact on my life. My solution (till now) has been to wait for an epiphany and hope that I will figure things out one way or the other sometime or the other. In essence, I am procrastinating over this decision because I don’t want to make this choice- I want to follow both paths. Not making a decision allows me to still have both options to choose from- both doors remain open.
My biggest problem is that both very different paths excite me at some level. After much procrastinating and putting off decision-making, I am now throwing the question open (on the advice of my father and magicpoetry) to any one who might read this post. Since blogging has helped me in many ways and I have always received wonderful advice from readers, I decided to take your advice and get your unique insights on this subject.
As I had mentioned earlier, I have three fantastic ideas for start-ups which could make me money, which excite me and which fulfill every criteria I have ever had for what I would like to do for the rest of my life (work-wise). The idea of doing business is very exciting and while I have no knowledge of the subject, I believe I have enough guidance to make something out of one or all of them. I have received a lot of support for these ideas and everyone tells me to go for it. Unfortunately, I have one big problem with going down this path- it doesn’t tie up with a lot of goals I have (on a more personal level) and I know that once I walk down this path, I am pretty much committed to it for a significant number of years.
Travel. This is it. I have been nursing this urge to travel around the world for the past 10 years but something always comes up. There is never enough money or time. There is always something else which seems more important. I want to spend some time living in various countries and experiencing life outside of India and my comfort zone. I want to backpack and meet new and interesting people. I want to discover myself through travel and get rid of a lot of pre-conceived notions and fears which I have been harbouring for several years and which have, in essence, held me back from rising to my true potential. I want to be grow at a personal level. Travel is one of those things I know I have to do before I die.
If I choose Path One, Path Two is pretty much redundant. While I may have the money to convert it into reality, I doubt that I will have the time to do so. I will just have to settle for short trips to various destinations.
If I choose Path Two, I will have to give up Path One or at least dissociate myself from my ideas. Someone else will come up with my ideas and do them. And that is only fair. There is nothing I can or will do to stop someone else from coming up with a great idea and making it work. Secondly, if I don’t travel now, when will I travel? What if life catches up as it has done in the past?
Whichever path I choose, I know I will regret not going down the other path, insofar as I want to do both but don’t know how to. There will always be a ‘What if’ which I will have to live with. I will always wonder what would happen if I chose the other path over the path I eventually decide to go down.
Is there anyway I could do both? If so, please tell me how?
Which path would you take? Would you go down Path One or Path Two?
How should I deal with the angst associated with choosing either of the two paths?
How do I answer the ‘What If”?
Any other advice would be most welcome.