I consider myself to be a very unconventional person in a lot of ways. In fact, sometimes I find myself wondering whether I am inherently unconventional or do I just embrace unconventionality because I don’t like being conventional. Perhaps, I have certain pre-conceived notions about conventionality and my tendency to equate it with boredom. Is being unconventional the new convention?
I sense this desire to be unconventional in a lot of people I know- whether it is in terms of leading an unconventional lifestyle or simply in terms of thinking unconventionally. When I read most pro-blogs, I notice how the bloggers are touting an unconventional lifestyle and I feel this yearning inside of me to live a life like them- location independent, making a living out of writing, helping people and owning my time, amongst other very enticing features of such a life. A lot of bloggers are promoting entrepreneurship and following your passion. These blogs really speak to me at some level but at the same time, I find myself wondering whether I am just getting caught up in the whole hype and whether it is actually what it is supposed to be. Yes, the cynic in me rears its (ugly?) head ever so often.
I know I want my life to be exciting. I know every once in a while I feel this very strong urge to do something crazy- something to make a story out of. I know routine bores me and that I need to mix things up a little. I know in a lot of ways, especially in my thinking and general outlook, I am very different from most Indians with a similar background etc. I know that I want to make a living following my passion(s). I know I love helping people and doing what I want to with my time instead of spending several hours seated behind a desk for no rhyme or reason. So, yes, at some level I am more certain than not that I am unconventional and following the conventional path has really not worked for me in the past.
However, is it the same for everyone else? Are people just being unconventional because they are being told that they should be unconventional or do they really want to? Should everyone not have a choice to do what they want to do as opposed to being judged on how conventional or unconventional their choices may be? Is it really all that bad to be conventional or is it just trendy to be unconventional?
Perhaps, I should stop defining myself as conventional, or unconventional- I am just me, trying to chart my own course in this world, making (and breaking) my own rules as I go along, trying to live my passions and somehow make enough money to fulfill my basic needs. The idea is to live life on my own terms whether those terms are conventional or unconventional. The idea is to be ME- unadulterated and unapologetic. It makes a lot more sense to be conventional if that is who I am than to be unconventional for the sake of it and because it is cool to be rebellious. And if I am, after all, conventional, then so be it.